they kiss. camera pans out. credits roll.
i write this as a high school girl who is in love with the idea of love would. having that almost too positive outlook on every relationship that might come her way. but honestly, i am realistic about how things can go. how he can seem to be everything, yet hurt you more than you ever swore possible. despite this, i still think having this childish ideas of what love can be is healthy to a point. can't be depressed about love all the time right?
i want my love life to resemble that of a romance. possibly even a romantic comedy where there are some bumps along the road to true love but as that last kiss or deep conversation or whatever way the filmmakers felt the film should end happens, people see these two characters and as the credits roll just leave it at 'they lived happily ever after'.
i want to accept the happily ever after.
there is a spark. a feeling i get with only certain men. it is a 'this guy is special. this guy is meant to be part of your life.' i've only felt it a few times. and each time no fail, that man has had an impact in my life... good and bad. really its that damn spark that makes it hard to put forth the effort with any man i don't instantly feel it with. but thats okay. right? with that spark it gives it a movie feel.
at this moment in my life. he seems ideal.
the spark was instant. when i saw him sitting there. i had to come up with an excuse to introduce myself. so i did. anti-climatic i know. but it was just like that. i knew within the weeks there was no way he was single. (plot twist 2, the first twist doesn't need to be mentioned.) my thoughts were confirmed one night during a conversation that included an awkward invite to a social event. i reminded myself if it as meant to be, itd happen.
couple twist and turns later he's back to being single.
thats where it is now. just let it continue and end happily ever after. just like the movies.
